Random Thoughts of a Narcissistic Gay Man

“I have really thought about trying out gay since meeting you, but I would only try with you.” Do you know how many times I have heard these words, or something close to it from “straight” guys? Trust me, I don’t have a super huge ego, at least not at the moment. Perhaps, when I am skinnier and the moons alight, MAYBE. But at the moment, I am not feeling very sexy. Yet, I am told this statement A LOT. The truth of the matter is that it is usually all talk, but there are a handful of guys that have let me take their hands and lead them down the rainbow road of male fun. The hardest part about all this tomfullery you ask? As super fun as it is to “try” and turn a straight guy, I tend to fall for them. I am ALWAYS flirtatious, usually with very little meaning behind it. But the fact of the matter is, these guys hold my little gay heart. At least the guys that I fall for do, they usually have the best personalities, are tall, handsome, and maybe even a little muscular! WTF? Why can’t I find those requirements in a gay man :( I am not giving up on my search for the holy gay grail, but I just wanted to kind of put in words, what has been bouncing around my head. Basically, All the good ones are straight and married or at the very least just straight. Yet, most woman say the opposite, so basically nobodies happy… lame…